Depressive on @weheartit.com - http://whrt.it/10qvGgT
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Shame is not a natural human emotion but rather a learned behavior.
theres this guy - we really dig each other. in typical fashion its complicated. normally he would be unquestionably off limits. ive done it once before - dated a friends ex. it was the best relationship of my life. go figure.
i just dont know what to do…
"Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end."
i just have one question. If you could hold on to so much love for her, even 21 years after my birth, why couldnt you have had just a little bit for me? I didnt ask for you to bring me into this world. i didnt do anything wrong. youve made me feel worthless; tossed aside. you walked away and never looked back. not only once, but twice.
ive cried my last tear for you. im all done with my sleepless nights in which i lay awake and attempt to justify it to myself. justify your immaturity and your irresponsibility and your lack of ability to stand up and be a man. coward.
i cant wait for the day when you know the truth. they know about me, they have for years. i even keep in touch. its incredible the love i have for them even though we have never met. and i cant wait for the amazing experience of knowing them.
ive been sad for so long over the thought that im missing out on knowing you. but no good man wouldve done what you have. so i sit here empowered by my realization that it was never my loss at all, its yours.
I thought it’d get easier with age; better.
I was wrong.